Posted By: mellers on
I didn't blog yesterday when I got back from my weekend away, for several reasons. I've not been dealing well with the prospect of losing my job and I'm afraid I am struggling a bit this week. Raging insomnia, wild mood swings (ranging from competence and self-belief way over to panic and hysteria). I'm afraid it's got me in a bad way for the moment, and I am desperately trying to keep it together for the sake of keeping my job,It all seems rather grim at the moment. When I blog, I need to be able to see SOME silver lining and I've been struggling to see that for the last week or so. We'll all know I'm starting to come out of it when I can blog chirpily again. I think I need to accept that this is just a part of this horrid illness and things will get back to a place where I feel human again and I can cope - just not yet. I think this is just something I have to go through and just hope it will pass quickly and I don't do too much damage to those friendships I do have while it is with me.In teh mean time, I hope all you iVillage lovlies out there will bear with me until I am normal Mellers again.
Tags:
stress, not coping, anxiety, work
